Last day at work!

Dear Scott,

 

I got my results today, as you would know I’ve been telling you how badly I’m going to do – turned out I didn’t do that badly (just like you said) Two B’s, a D and an E – not too bad. My first day off from work tomorrow is going to be spent really looking into all this uni stuff.

 

I have so much to do tomorrow, the day before I get to see you(!). I’m so excited. I don’t know where to start with getting everything all ready – there is so much for me to do. I still need to finish packing, finish your surprises completely, get myself ready… the list goes on quite a bit...

 

I hope you have had a good day today, I’m just about to go and watch the first Celebrity Big Brother… It’s a shame we couldn’t talk tonight I would have loved to have spent tonight just chatting to you, but I have made progress with your surprise so that was good. I’m so tired after work today and I was only there half a day…

 

I really can’t wait for Saturday – It’s going to be amazing!

 

I love you so much xxxxxxxx

Can’t wait :)

Dear Scott,

 

I’m so glad that you’re back from Nepal, I love you so much. It’s so good being able to talk properly.

 

I can’t believe how cheeky you are today though! I think you’re making up for the last three weeks to be honest.

 

I’m not looking to tomorrow, results day… I really don’t think I’ve done very well.

 

It’s my last day at work tomorrow, until after I see you. The time has gone so fast – I really can’t wait until we’re together it’s going to be amazing – just like you! Spending so much time together really is going to be incredible.

 

I love you so so much xxxxxxx

You come home today!

Dear Scott,

 

This one is going to be fairly short… I can’t wait – you come home today. This means we can talk more. I’ve missed you and talking to you so much! I really hope you’ve had a good time though.

 

I’m at work today – at least it will keep me busy until you’re back.

 

We’re another day closer to seeing each other! Everything is finally falling into place, all I need to do is work out what I want to do about my future.

 

I love you, can’t wait to talk to you properly xxxxx

I can’t wait for the 20th–29th August

Dear Scott,

 

I really can’t wait until I see you on the 20th August, our train journey together is going to be really good too! The whole time I’m with you is going to be amazing, I just know it will be because it always is, but I know I won’t want to come home on the 29th…

 

I hope you have really enjoyed your time in Nepal baby. I know there have been some points that have been tough for you, but hope you have some amazing memories and had some good experiences because I know how much you were looking forward to going. Your home tomorrow, can’t wait to hear from you, and finally be able to talk properly!

 

I’M SO EXCITED ABOUT NEXT SATURDAY! I really can’t wait… Every time I think about it I just get more excited about the fact I’m going to be seeing you.

 

I’ve thought about my future a little bit today, but I really need to talk to you about it. I just can’t seem to work out what I want to do. I need someone to talk it through with.

 

I’m at work tomorrow, not looking forward to it after the walk I went on today with the family in Thetford forest, I’ve got to bike and my legs really hurt. I fell over and bruised my elbow we thought I’d broken it when I’d first done it but I haven’t because the swelling went down and it’s only a little bit purple now.

 

Can’t wait to talk to you properly, and I’m really looking forward to seeing you, I can’t wait baby.

 

I love you so much xxxxxxxxxxx

At the age of 16, 80% of people have already met the person they're gonna marry.

Dear Scott,

 

I saw this statistic – “At the age of 16, 80% of people have already met the person they're gonna marry.” and instantly thought of you. I really do hope it’s you I get to marry.

 

I hope you’ve had a better day today, I’ve been really worried about you all day, hoping things are better for you and that you are smiling! I hated how upset you were yesterday.

 

I’m still looking at all the options to do with uni and what I can do. Especially having a proper look at the financial side of it.

 

It’s my day off tomorrow but the family want to go on a walk at Thetford forest… wish you could come too!

 

I love you so much xxxxxxxx

I’m worried about you!

Dear Scott,

 

I’m so worried about you! You were so looking forward to going out to Nepal and now you’re hating being out there. I wish I could do something to cheer you up.

 

Today has been pretty average for a day at work. Usual people complaining, some people being nice. There wasn't any really big problems which was quite unusual.

 

Right now I’m working on your two surprises, and talking to you. I really hope you like them, they’ve taken ages to sort out and they’re still not quite finished.

 

I love you so much, you’re stuck with me now! xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Babe I’m confused!

Dear Scott,

 

Babe I think I’m really going to have to think about uni again and whether it’s the right thing to do after seeing this article “The average graduate will be left with 58k debt when fees go up next year. Is a degree worth that much?” I don’t want to be in that much debt when I come out of it. There are loads of alternatives that wont cost me that much, I need one of ‘those’ chats with you.

 

Today I woke up even more excited than usual about the fact you’re coming home soon and the fact it’s getting so close to seeing you! I am so so excited, spending time with you will be amazing! I can’t even explain how much I’m looking forward to seeing you!

 

I’m working on your surprises at the moment! I hope you like them.

 

I’ve got work today… and tomorrow. I meant to be working in the shop today and the ice cream kiosk – I want to be in the kitchen though!

 

I love you, hope you have a good day xxxxxxxxx

Cash and Crashes

Dear Scott,

 

Today has been a lot better than yesterday. Even though I had to wake up really early on my day off!

 

Me and the family went down to southend… had a meal down there, walked around for a bit and went to the arcade, I won a fiver. I never win anything! So I was pretty happy about that.

 

Saw a car accident today, a car with a caravan attached to the back of it rolled over a few cars ahead of us on the motorway, it was pretty scary. It looked like the driver was stuck in the car but she got out but we pretty shaken. I had to give the emergency services details of where we were… but everyone in the car got out and no one was seriously hurt.

 

We got back pretty early, which turned out to be a good thing because I got to talk to you for an hour and a half! It was so good to talk to you!

 

I love you so much, I’m so excited for seeing you!!

 

xxxxxxxxxxx

Such a bad day!

Dear Scott,

 

Definitely been one of those days today, really wish I could have one of your cuddles, or even just a little chat would be nice. I feel so lost not being able to talk to you.

 

I cut the end off of my thumb which really hurt, didn’t think the knives in the kitchen are that sharp… it’ll heal soon though. So many things went wrong today. I’m so tired, we ended up leaving 20 minutes late because of everything we had to do was taking so much longer than it should.

 

I really miss you baby, can’t wait for you to come back and just be able to talk to you properly.

 

I’m really worried about my as level results, I’m actually really nervous about it. I’m still unsure about whether uni is the right thing for me, I need one of our chats about it, to work out what I want to do.

 

I’m half packed for staying at yours, can’t wait to see you and for the train journey together. It’s going to be amazing spending some time together! I’m so excited.

 

I love you so much – can’t wait to see you xxxxx

Bored….

Dear Scott,

 

I’ve spent most of the day working on your surprise. But I’m taking a break from it right now.

 

I want you to know just how much I love you – but I don’t think I could ever explain how much I really do love you.

 

I can’t wait for you to come back from Nepal, but I can’t wait to see you even more! I really want a cuddle and a kiss. It’s going to be amazing to spend some time together at last especially with all this time we haven’t been able to talk for.

 

I love you so much and always will, hope you are enjoying it all out there xxxxxxxxxxxxx

SURPRISE

Dear Scott,

 

I’m working on your surprise at the moment, it’s taking a while to get right and I want it to be perfect just like you!

 

I can’t wait for a cuddle from you.

 

I’ve got my train tickets now, so I basically all set for staying at yours all that is left to do is back and finish your surprise.

 

Your amazing, and I love you! Really wish I could talk to you.

 

I’ve got a day off tomorrow, would be better if I got to spend it with you, but I’m going to be with you soon! I really can’t wait to spend some time with you, it’s going to be amazing. I don’t think you realise how excited I am to be spending some time with you.

 

I love you so so so so much, hope you’re having a good time! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

So happy!

Dear Scott,

 

I’m so happy so many things have happened that are good today to do with us!

 

Firstly I got to talk to you on skype which was a massive surprise! I wasn’t expecting that at all but it was so nice to be able to talk because we haven’t been able to talk in so long… shame we weren’t able to talk for longer! We were meant to talk to each other tonight but for some reason we couldn’t….. but in a way that was a good thing seeing as my internet has been playing up.

 

Secondly, I bought wrapping paper and your birthday card (I think it has a really cute picture on the front).

 

Thirdly I bought my rail card, it didn’t take very long to get done and I got one of those cool flippy things to keep it in and for the tickets to go in too.

 

Fourth I bought my train tickets to go to yours, my mum and dad are going to pick them up tomorrow.

 

Fifth I wrapped up all your presents & wrote in your card.

 

So all in all I’m pretty much set for staying at yours! All I really have left to do if pack and leave. Two weeks tomorrow and we’ll be together! – I can’t wait.

 

Other than doing all that stuff I haven’t really done a lot. I watched a dvd and did nothing really.

 

I have loads of bruises appearing from work so I ache all over, I need one of your massages.

 

Really really can’t wait to spend some time with you and be able to cudlle up and kiss.

 

I love you so so so much mister xxxxxxxxxxx

 

(Post for 7th August 2011, 8.30pm – Internet playing up so wouldn’t post)

16 AMAZING Months

Dear Scott,

 

It’s crazy we’ve been together for 16 months, 1 year 4 months – that’s a really long time! The longest relationship I’ve ever been in and the only relationship I want to be in for the rest of my life.

 

I really can’t believe how far we’ve come, through all our ups and downs and yet we’re still together! I put you through so much and you still want to be with me, you’re an incredible guy and I am so so lucky to have you! I hope that I can always call you mine.

 

I never thought I would be able to have a decent guy, a proper relationship where I can trust them, rely on them, tell them everything…. but I have in you. I never want to lose that… ever.

 

I miss you so much right now, on a day I’d have loved to just talk to you about but everything at the same time we’re even further apart than we would normally be. But you are just being your kind, caring self – you’re in Nepal helping others, I couldn’t expect any less from you could I. You’ve always wanted to help other people and try and make their life better even if it made yours worse – But I hope I can make your life better even if it’s by the smallest bit. I want to give you as many good memories as you have more, actually I want to give you even more because you don’t deserve to have gone through what you have. You deserve to have the best possible life from now on and I want to be there to help you have that.

 

I really cannot wait for you to come back baby, so I can change what I have been doing so wrong for so long. I haven’t been treating you the way I should, and I promise you I will be because you didn’t deserve me taking you for granted, and I won’t be, not anymore. I’m going to treat you like the amazing person that you are. I’m going to open up to you like you’ve always wanted me to. We’re going to have our perfect relationship back, we really are.

 

I’ve had a pretty good day today, got another day off tomorrow which will be good, it would be even better if I was able to spend it talking to you. I know you’ll be back soon though!

 

I can’t wait to see you I really can’t, I can’t wait to be able to hug you and kiss you whenever we want and to just be able to sit in you arms again is going to be amazing… just like you!

 

I love you so much baby, I’m going to e-mail you this exact same letter because I don’t know how other to say what I just have, I’m always going to be yours – I promise xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

A week on monday!

Dear Scott,

 

I can’t wait for you to be back a week on Monday and to start treating you properly, because recently I haven’t. I love you so much and these few weeks have shown me I need to start showing it because I don’t like not having you around.

 

I have work today, the weather is okayish so it might be busy, well it most likely will because I haven’t worked a busy day lately.

 

I’m so tired because of worrying about you.

 

I love you so much I can’t wait to see you! The days are slowly going and it is getting closer.

 

I love you, hope your having a good time xxxxxxxxxxx

So much to do now.

Dear Scott,

 

Today has been a pretty good day really, had a day off from work which was nice.

 

My whole family went shopping, I’ve got a few new clothes, 3 new bikinis – I couldn’t choose between them, your birthday present, a surprise present for you, and a few books. Still need to get your birthday card and some wrapping paper because I don’t think we have any.

 

Still need to book/ buy my train tickets, I’m not getting a railcard this time because I just don’t have time to sort it out. So much is going on at the moment.

 

I have found myself a little hobby/ project – I’m researching my family history and making a family tree – I’ve got a blog all about it as well.

 

I love you so much!

 

I haven’t been sleeping well the past few days – I’m worried about you, and I’m worried in case that while your away your feelings might have changed towards me and you might not want to be with me anymore because of how I was treating you before you went away.

 

I really can’t wait to see you when you get back, and to be able to talk to you properly.

 

I’m at work again tomorrow – no rest for me! At least I’m able to get a lift in tomorrow.

 

I love you so so so much and I always will.

Tiger Day

Dear Scott,

 

It was tiger day today at work. It turned out to be no where near as busy as they made it out to be, most likely because of the rain, it was constant rain… it just wouldn’t stop. AT ALL.

 

I hope you’re doing some amazing things out in Nepal babe, and I mean it you better have loads of stories to tell me. I mean with all this time you’ve been away you’ve got to have some stuff to tell me! – Where as I will have nothing exciting to tell you… nothing much has changed round here really.

 

Going out shopping tomorrow, going to sort out your birthday present, a little surprise for you, some new clothes for me staying at yours, a bikini, and probably some other random stuff too. I’m really looking forward to my day off, got quite a few over the next couple of days. just think a week on Monday you’ll be back in England and then a short while later we’ll actually be together again.

 

I was thinking about the future, I definitely want it to be with you no matter what else goes on. All I want is to be with you, this few weeks has really well a truly shown me that.

 

Sleep well tonight, make sure you’re taking your malaria tablets and I really can’t wait to talk to you properly when you get back.

 

I love you babe xxxxxxxxxxx

It’s only 2 years since we met!

Dear Scott,

 

I can’t believe it’s only two years since we met, the time has flown by! I’m so glad we sorted all those problems out and that our relationship is better than ever!  I really can’t wait for the next 10 days to be over so we can have a proper chat.

 

The nice hot weather has gone and now its just chucking it down – pretty much sums up the British weather doesn’t it.

 

I’m really really looking forward to seeing you – only 15 days.

 

Time goes so slowly when I’m not talking to you. – It needs to speed up a llittle bit now.

 

I hope you are having a good time!

 

I love you so much xxxxxxx

It’s so HOT here!

Dear Scott,

 

It was so hot today in the kitchen, I was so happy though – I was cooking on my own for ages for the first time baby. But the kitchen was crazy hot.

 

On Tuesday me, my Mum and Tasha are going shopping so I can get your birthday present, your surprise, some new clothes, and all the other bits and pieces I need. Going to talk to my dad bout train tickets when him and Aaron get back tomorrow too, so they should be booked soon!

 

Can’t believe how soon it is until we’re going to be together – I’m still just taking one day at a time and hoping it will all go quicker though!

 

All your mates seem to be arguing over facebook at the moment, Anneka and Aaron, Anneka and Adam. God knows whats going on.

 

I love you so much, going to write you an e-mail now and then have a shower, absolutely shattered, hope you got my text yesterday xxxxxxxxxxxx

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

Dear Scott

 

I’m off to work again today! Talk about working hard, while you’re off on holiday. I’m joking I know the trek must be quite hard, but I really hope you’re enjoying it.

 

I think I will get the rail card because it will mean I will probably be able to afford to see you more because it will make it cheaper over the year. I’m so looking forward to being with you and spending some time with you, our little holiday together will be amazing too!

 

Sooooo looking forward to it. Really really can’t wait. Can’t believe how close it’s getting babe.

 

Got to bike to work today so got to leave early AGAIN!

 

On Saturday we’ve been together for 16 months! The time has gone so fast, it doesn’t seem like it was yesterday and we were getting back together, it was definitely the best decision of my life!

 

I love you so much xxxxx

Thanks for putting my contract up even more

Dear Scott,

 

I’m joking with the title by the way! Thank you for texting me but you’ve made me really worry about you! – You need to eat and sleep baby, I’ve told you about this before, I’m not ever going to leave you and I hope you get my text baby because I hate the thought of you worrying about something that won’t happen.

 

I’m trying to write this really quickly so I can write you an e-mail and get to bed at a decent time so I’m not tired for work tomorrow.

 

Work was so dead today, so we were cleaning AGAIN, I should have just got a job as a cleaner! But saying that I do love my job and you know I do. I got paid today so I can start sorting out everything to come and see you, I don’t know if I’ll get a rail card or just buy train tickets – I still can’t decide which would be better.

 

Biking to and from work was killed me! I’m so tired today I need a cuddle.

 

I love you so much panda xxxxxxxx

I love you

Dear Scott,

 

Firstly I wanted to say I love you, I definitely don’t think I tell you this enough.

 

Hearing your voice yesterday made me realise just how much I miss you and ever since you phoned the time has slowed down! But I’m so so so glad you did phone, hearing your voice was amazing.

 

I’m off to work again today, got to bike in as well, oh yeah and it keeps raining – we were meant to be having a heat wave but it doesn’t look like that will happen now with all this rain. But I doubt it will mean work is quiet.

 

Hope you’re having a good time.

 

I love you so much xxxxx

Thank You

Dear Scott,

 

Thank you so much for phoning me today, it was so so so so good to hear your voice. I’m definitely going to appreciate talking to you on the phone a lot more.

 

Hearing your voice made me realise even more how I can’t wait to be with you and how amazing our first holiday together will be! I’m so looking forward to spending some time with you baby it’s going to be absolutely AMAZING.

 

I’m sorry for sounding off with you on the phone though, 8am after three busy days at work isn’t the time I was thinking of getting up. Especially after I spent the night throwing up, which has meant I’ve been asleep virtually all day apart from when I was woken up by my mum trying to get me to eat. But don’t worry I have had a sandwich tonight and I didn’t throw it back up (sorry if that’s too much information).

 

Got work again tomorrow, not really feeling up to it right now. But hopefully a good nights sleep will make it seem better in the morning. I need a hug baby, can’t wait till I get one.

 

I love you so so much, nothing will change that – ever xxxxxxxx